So, a couple of years ago, probably closer to three… I joined Weight Watchers. I had recently been diagnosed with PCOS and I knew that that would mean that getting my weight under control would become exponentially more difficult the more weight I put on, I was also at the highest weight I had ever been.
I stayed on the program for less than a year, but during that time I was able to get my weight down to a level that I was comfortable at. I had been going with my sister, and around the time I hit that weight she was at the point where she was ready to quit as well. So… We both walked away, and less then a year later I was 6 pounds heavier than I had been at the start.
We rejoined Weight Watchers in October of 2011, and by June of 2012 I was a lifetime member. I picked my goal weight as the same number I was at when we walked away from Weight Watchers the first time. I was really proud of myself for hitting this goal again! I managed to keep that weight off for almost an entire year. What changed? Well, you see, in January my boyfriend moved to town, and in March mom had a stroke.
Now, don’t get me wrong! I don’t blame David or my mom for my weight gain. It’s just that my priorities and opportunities for food choices have changed. You see, before these two big events, I would eat pretty much every dinner at home. I would make myself a sensible breakfast to take to work, and I would take leftovers from dinner the night before as my lunch. My sister Eva and I both live at my moms house for a plethora of reasons, and Eva does most of the cooking and she goes to Weight Watchers with me. So meals at home tend to be “points friendly” meaning that the food is low on Weight Watchers Points, but you get a good bang for your buck. You only have a finite number of points in a day/week. I never really ate out because that just wasn’t the routine.
Now we go to the movies fairly frequently which I wasn’t doing nearly as often before, and we eat out at restaurants way more frequently than I was doing before. I find it a lot harder to stay on plan now that I don’t have somebody who’s on plan keeping me accountable by simply their presence. I know that Eva knows how many points I shove in my mouth when I eat a silly snack or make poor food choices. She has lost almost 90lbs this time around and is truly a force to be reckoned with. if you’d like you can check out her story here.
It also doesn’t help the fact that David lives above a convenience store. I have quite a sweet tooth and I love Reese’s peanut butter cups and peanut M&Ms and my niece is allergic to peanuts so when I’m at my house I can’t have anything with peanuts but when I go to David’s I really like to indulge!
I know that I can be an emotional eater and it has been an emotional roller coaster with my mom. There is also a certain amount of stress that comes from having no clue if and/or when David and I will be able to get married. These have to have had an impact on my weight.
But! Despite the fact that I have been gaining, I’m comfortable in my own skin. And I know that I have somebody who loves me no matter what. That said, I’d like to get the weight back off, I know that it’ll be easier to get the weight off if this is the only weight I have to lose. I’m currently sitting 5 pounds above my Weight Watchers goal and 10 pounds of above the weight I had been maintaining for almost a year.
My goal for June was to drop the weight and get myself back down at least to my Weight Watchers goal weight. My goal for this summer is going to be to get all the weight off and get back to the weight that I had been maintaining for almost a year. I hope to exercise more, eat better and track every single day.
I don’t know how I’m going to accomplish this except that now I’m accountable to all of you who read this.